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you are not going to bed
until you finish your supper

and i thought of all those jesus
stickers
tagging the vehicles of so many
who drive like assholes without
regard to life

one cannot afford
to flippantly say
I'm not perfect
just forgiven

not by me, swift
i could've killed a woman with a baby
in a rear facing
snot laiden
car seat

and instead
sent the rav 4 woman
i hand picked
like my red apple
accordioned
stranger on a board

and you need to think about that
and then
i forgive you

so what if it were
fish
on
YOUR
plate

forgiveness is a gift
your grandparents
even taught
you
to be appreciative
grateful
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did you see it
have you felt it
whom did you tell
first
what color are their eyes
did you ask them
to kiss your tears

mr Simpson
tell me a story
and you four

have you ever
heard such deafening
silence
clarity

 

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or
would you have to walk
with
hurricanes
tornadoes
gods
and monsters

to...

 

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the power to kill a tree
and reanimate
the man made a wooden tablet
in some random shop
i know how many
however many years ago
d i y
smart
the power over life and death
wood
and he still looks at it
with admiration
to
this
day
even though
he knows he could've done better
every
board
log
hunk
since

it's just a splinter
right

isn't it just

 

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notice some

no anaconda.45
no judgment

 

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whatever - it takes alot out of me.
then i can't sleep
and get
the munchies
real
bad
hadn't taken squat, for 34ish hours.
last took something
the new
trash...
no old trash- cbd mix
around 0600 this morning

the doc mentioned
some random new drug for crazy
no
thank you

y'all know,
just a scratch on a cap
bout 1mg, once to twice per diem
typically

if it's psychosis
it's homegrown
he mentioned genetics
not to my knowledge

i asked about the palsy
i empathized with
he and mr Simpson
surrounding themselves
with the sick n dying

never seen doctor death
rush off
not ever
not
once
i don't believe it was that eye
he said
that waters

32psi
for a medical professional
must
b
crushing

and to believe one may be of service
and watch helplessly
as dozer dies
must
b
crushing
poor
poor
doctor death

 

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the island
the movie
the laws against
the ability to clone
the wealthy
island
sex criminals

carpet bagger
Lincoln's bullet
skull
hair
wanted for dna
re: father
wherever

back to clones
ice men
godfathers

24 & who
marks of invisible
monsters

shroud of
turan
searching
for bobby fisherofmen

 

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now, i want to know, for a different reason
i want to know for myself

i bet he felt it
and
just like we
told
no
one

my friends n family are aware that i
am now
retarded;
one of em people who plays with their puup
like it's play-dough

you four
are the only ones
I've told
about the
psycho
shower
scene

who would
you
tell and what color are their eyes
what
did they say
your tears
sounded like
what
did they say
your tears
tasted
like

o
m
g

i told
no one

they would've fucking
locked me
in
a
padded
cell.
perhaps my 10x10 pond
is
practice

o
m
g

i bet
you
told
no one

and i completely understand
y

 

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g.... my lovely g

all she heard was

your uncle
and we
will c each other again
we
are all
going to a good
place






so to speak
somewhere else

and u know the rest

i

told
no one

 

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I have a story. But its eight paragraphs. How does that feel.

 

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entirely appropriate
never need to ask

 

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I've been told
and more than once
by more than one

i
write
books

go figure

 

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can't sleep
i
i told my lovely g
she went about queuing up
that shining dream movie

clearly
unimportant

when i said
I'm crazy
aren't i

i heard
obviously
she said
no

i have had things happen to me (hooga booga)
which i could not explain

and went about her kingly way

wtf was i supposed to say
wtf was i supposed to do

u know
half the time I'm in my 10x
I'm on my knees, leaning on a shytter
because this god dam battery....

and when i started my teletubby workouts
often i was submitted on all 4s, peering
into the ripples
until i could figure out, how a fat man
gets in a tub
so he may exit,
without getting stuck

yeah
that weak
that fat
hence the pilot
so i could lay down
on the road

3mo ago
when i last saw my doc
i was 14lbs heavier
(u know doc scales- i had jeans on
a... "few" sizez big n other b.s.
i could tolerate 3hrs max
erect, which was a miracle
to me

and today
i told him
dawn to dusk
function all day
of course, i need to
stop and stretch
n chill, from time to time
atrophy
not
debilitation
I'm working on it

it's had to tell
when he knows u stopped taking
asthmedics, heart pills, etc...
whether it's his palsy
or he is that impressed
intrigued
fascinated
by mr Simpson's gift

obviously, he believes in cannabis
but perhaps not to this extent
or perhaps he saw something else
will
will to live,
free of a prison of fear and pain

anyway
i can't sleep
obviously you four
can't either
perhaps if one
tells a story
one of four
will
be able to

so
not plugging in.
95% battery
cop shocks
cop car
not a cop battery
I'm on a mission from carzy
to bore you four
to sleep

the neighbor left his purebred
pup
black lab
out
it is below freezing
yeah
what does one do
it's country
and it's a man's dog
y'all know how we treat homelessness
what
does one do
y'all know how we feel about our pups
this man's exwife
dumped it on him
after i dug a hole for him... amongst 2
other neighbors
that
is
community
he has my crate, over 2 yrs, now,
to train that pup
ever train a pup?
doesn't take 2 yrs
sometimes a drowning man
will take even his own wife
under with him
to save himself
it's not personal
it is an autonomic response
will

he and his xxx
actually speak
she gave him the bitch
thea
how do you think he would feel
to part with it
he's disabled
alone
dog mostly gets ignored
to go mental
in a 10x
of her own feces

how do you think his xxx
would feel
were he to part with it

how do you think thea feels
in frozen shyt

how do you feel

i feel
like an accomplice
complicit

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one of my favorite christmases
as a kid
sober
smoker on the sly
but sober
maybe 4th grade... no wait... i got this...
i was 12
smoking still applies
step pops on scene
it is vacation time
and he was an avid
Louis lamour fan
a hick at heart wannabe
in the city
it's funny
because when I'd take my kid to visit, when he did move to a different valley
of dirt people... i would take my son
with the understanding that he...
to appreciate animals- would be
mucking stalls and doin a lil brushing
if
he was lucky.
the steppops new wifey- both i suppose
disabled
she, as a retired atty,
taught children how to ride
all i can say is
a corral was cleaned
horses were touched
as were mules
and not one ride
was given
not
one
sorry
kiddo

being the hopeless romantic
the man did teach me how to shoot
taught alot o cops to do the same
that was our Christmas
tons of cops
chillin at the house
not
when we were poor
this, was after
moot

the last time
i felt the need to visit
the man
he taught my son
who had been a bb gun
crack shot
for years
and
knew safety
just
like
we

and just like chess
is a better shot
then, to now

it was beautiful
to watch

and my lovely ginger
is fearless
with a 40cal
and fifty cents each
rounds
if one is to shoot another
with such a thing
might wanna go through their pockets
you chose some dam expensive shells

jimmy
taught me what I'd be watching for
the night i sat with lovely g and he
in a Denny's
watching the clock
tick by
couldn't do that in a casino
could u
mosh

and it was really something
special
spectacular
to hold his newborn grandson
and i could not swear to this
because my memory is shyt
but i believe we
too
were holding a deck of cards
no murderers on deck
not that time

and then there's a Christmas story
for another time
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i will start the water n c what happens
sure seems to do something

 

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i also saw his daughter
have her first
it is quite a thing
to be so close to a family
when one is
one of few
chosen to witness
their next generation
stepping from liquid
into life
quite
special

isn't that something

 

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so I'm 12ish
1yr from summiting my first peak
Christmas morning
in a mini wini
ever been to mammoth
convict lake etc

we weren't there

I'm not certain
i want to say
red's meadows
near a pack station
snowed in
i believe the momz n step
feared for all of our lives

we sat at a tablebed
just like u imagine
maroon tuck n whatever
furry
little
seats
playing board games
just the four of us
and someone else
in the mom'z tummy
yup
snowed in

pops went four a walk in the
winter wonderland of
fresh snow
bright green pines
livened with tufts of snow
and icicles sparking in the dawn
suspended from their furs

 

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pops returned with a man named ken
who had a thick rope
orange beard
and if I'm not mistaken
a colorful man
nice fello and companion

next thing i recall
we're in front of a woodburning stove
thawing out
i don't even remember what was unwrapped and unraveled that year

but i remember being trapped in a mini wini
sitting at an uncomfortable table
playing boardgames with my family
and it was one of the best christmases
of my life

and that is how it began....

 

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i need to calm the hurricanes
i need tunes
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it must be your turn

 

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