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Shit tons the final straw was my wife leaving unexpectedly in the middle of the night... on the night before my birthday while I was at work.Dude what the hell happen???
Shit tons the final straw was my wife leaving unexpectedly in the middle of the night... on the night before my birthday while I was at work.Dude what the hell happen???
Hahaha that's what I have been doing for years and I actually volunteer for a place called "pay it forward" IRONYKiLo, I do not know you, but those feelings and words are not unfamiliar in my life. Different circumstances.
Right now I would say you are in survival mode,or still in a great deal of pain due to the recent events.
You may or may not need help to get over this, if your State is like mine, you will get the help you need.
I vowed that I will help anyone after what I went thru, because that sense ,feeling of loss at such a trumatic level exhausts our ability at times to see our selfworth.
Right now you need support, you need your basic needs met, please do not neglect those things.
My house is open to all that that need saftey, food, warmth, a to rebuild a life. It is the only way I can " pay it forward"
Tis exactly what I am doing minus the telehey people,who's around?
Kilo,hows you today lad?I've finally just plonked my ass down in my rocker,for a smoke n a nice brew..lol.bit of Tele....hehe..i know,I'm an ole git...hehe.
Shit bro,what you been doing with your time then?are you still working?I think if I found myself in your position now,with no ties,id up n leave.maybe,fresh start.its really hard the older we get to keep picking ourselves up,and shake ourselves off again.think id find it easier with some distance between me and were everything's went wrong. Your a survivor for sure k,I know you've been through a lot worse than this in the past already mate...Tis exactly what I am doing minus the tele
Bro I won't lie I had visions of u pissing on the ashes :) never judge a man by how hard he hits the floor but how fast he gets up again I've been through a few ruff times but each time I've bounced back bigger and higher. its all about mental state and mine is in them cases that of a rubber yoyo throw me down I bounce back and twat u in the face :)Quick clarification Note for everyone. I burned my life down Metaphorically speaking not I lot my house on fire laughing and screaming BURN MOTHERFUCKER BUUUURRRN. Altho in retrospect that may have been the better option. Lmao
HahH true that my friend and how. So that right now is my issue however I am just like that myself but I have no idea honestly just what to do I guess I am at a fork in my road where I can keep moving forward and just be a successful grower person. I can go left and just fuck my life off and just not give a fuck anymore or I can go right and start on a whole new path all together and for some reason all I want to do is throw the fork away and get a knife so I can cut through the bull and get straight to the marrow. So I guess what I am saying is once you have tasted the nectar the fruit just never tastes as sweet again if you catch my meaning.Bro I won't lie I had visions of u pissing on the ashes :) never judge a man by how hard he hits the floor but how fast he gets up again I've been through a few ruff times but each time I've bounced back bigger and higher. its all about mental state and mine is in them cases that of a rubber yoyo throw me down I bounce back and twat u in the face :)
Yeah but it will never be what I wanted there in lyes the issue @mancdankSounds to me she never deserved a guy that would focus all the energy like this I went through a similar thing around 15 years ago I threw my self into the 1 thing I always had a skill for that's my ganja we had a real good run made lots and lots of cash and I guess the rest is history the point being is u never know what's around the corner u obviously have skills growing to have a fancy certificate like that I'm more than sure if u focused none of this would be like it ever happend this I promise
This is the thing with this game bro it can provide a very nice life style don't focus on the losses this I guarantee is the thing stopping u moving forward focus on tomorrow yesterday is over nowHahH true that my friend and how. So that right now is my issue however I am just like that myself but I have no idea honestly just what to do I guess I am at a fork in my road where I can keep moving forward and just be a successful grower person. I can go left and just fuck my life off and just not give a fuck anymore or I can go right and start on a whole new path all together and for some reason all I want to do is throw the fork away and get a knife so I can cut through the bull and get straight to the marrow. So I guess what I am saying is once you have tasted the nectar the fruit just never tastes as sweet again if you catch my meaning.
You are kinda hitting the head on the nail there bro where I am coming from on it tho. That is like saying focus on the winning lotto numbers and you will eventually figure them out.....This is the thing with this game bro it can provide a very nice life style don't focus on the losses this I guarantee is the thing stopping u moving forward focus on tomorrow yesterday is over now
Yeah but it will never be what I wanted there in lyes the issue @mancdank
I guess your right bro but worry and regret imho are the biggest wastes of time that any 1 can do its all about moving forward and doing the best that u can do with u have right now which granted doesn't sound like u have a lot but u have your health which is a great startYeah but it will never be what I wanted there in lyes the issue @mancdank
No bro what I'm saying is u already have the winning lotto numbers in your head and the skills in your hands last time I checked weed costs more per gram than gold u need a light a cutting and a bit of soil I'm sure the rest u could work out if u was in the UK I would send u a 1 light tent complete but I don't know how I would go about getting it to uYou are kinda hitting the head on the nail there bro where I am coming from on it tho. That is like saying focus on the winning lotto numbers and you will eventually figure them out.....
I have my legs and arms and fingers my heart and half a brain my health has never been good born with birth defects cancer twice COPD now emphasima and recently diagnosed with an extremely rare blood disorder that is caused by a chance happening where everything in the environment must be perfect to let happen and don't think I will go into detail about now. So health I do not have. Due to the long fucked up road I have taken in life I often say I am living in a life of JOBI guess your right bro but worry and regret imho are the biggest wastes of time that any 1 can do its all about moving forward and doing the best that u can do with u have right now which granted doesn't sound like u have a lot but u have your health which is a great start
It would help to have water or electric power also for that to be of great help.. I bought a empty lot so I can build a hydroponic veg farm as for weed being worth more than gold HahahahHhabahbabahahhahhahahhahahhababbahba okNo bro what I'm saying is u already have the winning lotto numbers in your head and the skills in your hands last time I checked weed costs more per gram than gold u need a light a cutting and a bit of soil I'm sure the rest u could work out if u was in the UK I would send u a 1 light tent complete but I don't know how I would go about getting it to u