the secret of the human condition

[hyde]

Not richie

She had laptop

Said she was leaving

This is her msg

To the last rat n mouse pest infested place

She stayed

Obviously I was bummed

She had opportunity to read

Made her
Sever feeling
If she saw

 

[hyde]

I think

112hrs on my feet

Minus 4 hrs

I think I did alright

It's a challenge

She did goof

She can hold her head high

I beat the shit out of her

With my mind

To show her the fear

She should have

I need her to try

One step on her own

In the clarity of the eye of a storm

For the first time in my life

I saw utter submission

And

She was beautiful

I saw my girl

I couldn't b certain she wasn't reading

So yes

I lacked integrity

today

Necessary

I did not beat her

She chilled

Held er own

It's not my Choice

I respect

She chose to remain on opioids

Much as I disagree

Most difficult challenge of my life

Not to break

Something so exquisitely fragile

But

To break

Just enough

Wow


Wow


I ruined her

By giving her everything she wanted

Not

Everything she needed

I hope her Choice

Is to stay close

I exaggerated

This will work

My concepts

She chooses healthier

I will c her safe

There's equity

She kicks

Itz herz

Car

Same deal

She kicks

Does her part

I need to allow her space

She's going to fly

She'll get wheels

Tucson

Too late

-my lovely ginger

Goodnight

I'd never been with another like her

I spoiled her

I didn't ruin her

The right one

If any

Should b so lucky

To witness such strength of heart

Such spirit

I don't feel I could ever be the right tool for the job.

She's not a fucer upper

Just needs time

 

[hyde]

I never saw it coming

Thought I'd have a heart attack all day

Slimmed her choices

For opioids

Never truly occurred

I'd have to let her go

To see her happy

 

[hyde]

So hard

All day

And after I drove into the sunset

The pressure just evaporated

On the upside

How many people

Can say


I once had a lover

Who loved me so much

He said to someone

I once knew a lady

Worth my life

My time

And

Every... penny

-here kitty king

Aren't you so pretty

 

[hyde]

-hyde

 

[hyde]

It was strange

For the first time in my life

Perhaps

I felt whole

Like

I'm not actually missing a piece

Maybe it's me

On my feet

That's different

Without a woman

Toooo...

Make me... want

 

[Aqua Man]

Time brother.... time heals. I know it feels like the world is ending but time has a way of sorting things out.

 

[hyde]

My life is a Dickens novel

It never occurred

I may own the property

I would require for

"Possible"...

In speaking to momz n the middle of the night

It occurred

Rehab home

Pool toys
Things to keep busy

Depending on new laws

And ginger

Should she begin making healthier choices

Her future could b

And standing on her own

She cares more for my investment than I do, it's, "her" house.. she could b

The mother of her own rehab house

And I know all the right people

Charities

Money, when necessary


I know

The multi concept is what balanced my brain

What I learned

In the last 24

Is

As PTSD self medicates with booze

Cannabis is a magnet

That fits only one way

Push pull triple beam

Gravity

To balance mind and body

Synergistically

So when used incorrectly

People feel and appear high

When we tailor or I do

Budtenders

To specific needs

People don't feel high

They don't have to be

To balance themselves

So people who prefer indicas

Feel anxiety

People who prefer sativa

Require focus

Or lack it

We're all just trying to chill

They just need tailoring

It's easier for me to do so

Via concentrates

But would b just as effective

Cross platform

To the degree body filtration is required

For the individual

Our favs

Give us what we want

Not

Always what we need

Push pull give take

Like life

When u reach a higher level of awareness we learn

Perfect tools for the job

Regardless of the perception of the one

Fellas

Back me up?

Don't let me fail?

If new legislation allows

Me to do so

And I have a need

Not a want

Although for me, at this time, the two are congruent

I'd like to start a halfway house

Rehab

I believe my tailoring experience

Can help people and prove the concept

Obviously

My grow would need to b moved

Maybe... 4 person halfway house

For opioid dependents

For a healthy alternative

I proved

To heal damaging side effects of opioids

It doesn't take me long

To tone addict

And... use cannabis to do it

Those who choose it

100% ... minimal withdrawals

I might need help of I don't know what kind

I just know u all have it

Holy shit

I have plenty of room to grow a...

Nm... Arizona desert...

 

[hyde]

The weight loss fits perfectly into this concept

People on opioids

Laid up

Tend to gain

Half pound a week...

Consequence of chronic pain and opioids

It fits my observing nature

Perfectly

And affords 5 Guinea pigs

My lovely g may b my first guest

Own it

And not ever need to know it

 

[hyde]

Tell me how many other "researchers:

Already "know" this

I'd like to find em

And work with them

 

[hyde]

This would b very dear to my heart

My momz lived/survived it n so have

I

Both

Drugs and opioids

When we realize who we r

Everything seems to fit

Like a puzzle

U trained for

Your entire life

Today

It's training day

On the farm...

 

[hyde]

The other medical advances

Are a consequence

Of my focus

 

[hyde]

But

It only works

If ginger chooses

To make healthier choices

I will watch her back

Protect her

And

She'll b the underwriter

Of her own future

And

Never need to know it

I am apart from her

But

She will always b

Priceless

To me

When we don't comprehend

How the puzzle pieces fit

We break them

And they will forever

Puzzle us

Ginger isn't the right piece for me

She is

The only piece

....

But

It is

And isn't

My puzzle

 

[hyde]

To complete

-end of whatever book this is

When we go crazy

We're just using the wrong piece

So to speak

And

We dunno y

But

It makes us unhappy

 

[hyde]

I find

When we find the right pieces

We're never really asking them for anything at all

 

[hyde]

And

It covers larry the roofers future

Using his eyes and their hands

For payment

Up keeping the homes of our community



For those who need one

And

Cannot afford to pay

Simply maintaing the homes of our communities

Of all of my concepts

I've already documented proof

Here

Fellas

Could we do this in your hoods

 

[hyde]

I



think u know
Already

And just never occured

We never use it for rehabs

Because viewed as a drug

It never occurs

And that y we're failing

I get 100%

minimal withdrawal

No relapses I'm aware of

Because they choose it

 

[hyde]

Would u guys back this

In your own communities

 

[hyde]

It just never occurs to we

In peer sites

We're already in

The research

 

[hyde]

Because researchers

Per se

Ain't allowed to b on em

It's y we do better

Faster

And

Their poopoo

Izzz

Ditch

Because when we use ghetto

We learn faster

We share ideas

And

We

Learn better

Because

We break everything we touch

99% if my coolest shit is by oops

Because we don't know any better

It's just in our outlaw nature

Nobody can tell us

What cannot b done

Because we'll try anyway

It's just human nature

And

I'm human too