Where do I go from here.
How do I move on.
I'm just going to be stuck working everyday struggling to survive alone.
Isolated in this state alone.
My finances of basically been cut in half now that I'm supporting only myself. I'm back to living a bachelor lifestyle. I have grown so accustomed to living the married life style I'm having a hard time going back to the bachelor Style.
I feel so confused like I have no idea which direction I need to go. I don't know where to start. I don't know when these feelings of grieving are going to pass. I feel like I've sunk into a deep depression that's hard to pull out of. The only thing that's going to help me through it is the continuation of work and knowing that I just have to keep moving forward or else my life will just fail.
I wish everything would just stop in the world would wait for me to catch up. But instead I'm forced to keep going whether or not I feel like I'm able.
the outlook is always worse when you are in the storm, but it will of course get better with time.
one of the benefits of being human is our ability to adapt and to overcome adversity. Partly too of course it is this character of humanity that allows us all at times to be pushed and at those times we allow it, but there is nothing more certain than change. Not very sympathetic I understand, but real.
The idea that the grass is greener, well now, that usually BS and in time those caught up in the beam today, will likely get trapped in a time loop of constant thought about matters unresolved. Make peace with her man, and yourself, be kind on yourself and see how much light you have in you. Relationship in the singular are not the ones that define us, we are all connected regardless to your spouse and her choice, you have energy that exists without her, and that is the only part of you i know anyway :)
Hold tight now, the bumps do get smoother, and the path more illuminated. Peace