On a side note most of this was a panic attack but we all go a little crazy sometimes. I wish I could kill this threadvit makes my head hurt but it is what it is...I'm gonna grow and be happy now..
Dude, I can understand for reals. Specially, enfin you was out of your head with some good shit, lookin at the popo outside. I can relate. It's a strange world we inherited. Some muthfka's get to kill their pregnant wife, and unborn child, then put one in the 2 year old also. There brought to justice, maybe, then given life in a 10x10 "
if justice" is done, perhaps...
I suppose it depends on how one defines it. But someone selling loosies, or passing a mistaken $20 fake is fucking executed. Some people don't get it, but this blonde haired, blue eyed white boy does.
The world is a sewer/shithole,
filled with lots of losers on every side. You just got to make lemonade somehow. Can't let it harden you, too much. That would be unbalanced. You got to be the yin to your yang.
I'm glad I now live in the
Free world, we've built on the
West Coast. But the battle continues, and many are confused. I've lived in over 30 states, and been to 50, so I know what it's like in some of those shitholes. I've lived in Dry counties, that you couldn't purchased a beer after midnight on on Sat, for 30 miles in all directions. I've been through states where if you rest (sleep) in a rest stop,
ie. Texas (along the highway) and they will put you in jail.
You must stay awake. Or pay someone for a place to park, and (sleep). It's why I've never stopped in that state, ever. I got drunk once at the airport in Huston, when I was in the military, maybe around 1985. But that's it.
Freedom from tyranny of those in places of power!
That's why you got people Killen each other over $1 in places like that. Those homies are desperate. lol, I say it laughing, but it's no laughing matter. It's serious, and there are better ways of solving these things. Makin more criminals for a place to house them, then charging the government for it. That's what's being done, it's a livestock vestige from slavery days. The couldn't win the war, so they changed the rules to the game.
Mexi's, natives negra, po whit boi ->>>
enter here. <<<- bbbrrp...
“Many will call me an adventurer, and that I am...only one of a different sort: one who risks his skin to prove his truths.”
bk ty
FARM, from all the way down south aka Hawaii! 
. I’ve dealt with it my whole life but am currently in the longest single period at this level in my 52 years. I’m slipping into a manic period which is why I’m still up (again). Everything around us all is so stressful and weird right now. This outdoor grow has been more stressful for me than I anticipated due to the loss of the guidance. Which was no ones fault. Life just happens the way it does. I’m calming down now and realizing I’m just doing the best I can and let it happen. I’ve been a mess for days. 2 nights zero sleep, followed by 14 hours of sleep, and now I’m pretty sure I won’t get any again. It’s just going to make it all worse. Maybe putting it down in words will help me change it. A drive to a mass dispensary will help too. Hahaha. I don’t have to but I just get a kick out of it still. They are nothing like the California stores but they’re still fun. I have a NY medical license but there’s no flower in them. It was the dumbest law. They don’t have much for me beyond the vape cartridges and I only like those for quick convenience. It’s calming to see, feel, smell & prepare the medicine and use it in different ways. I swear just a nice flowery odor can calm me better than any klonopin or Xanax. I finally even changed my docs opinion. Anyway, again, thank you for sharing and I am even happier now that this is the site I joined. Even if it was out of sheer panic. 
