Heres my flowering stuff. Three of those plants went through a MASSIVE recovery from Sir FucksUpAlot's PH Debacle. The big widow is a week or three away. I'm not pulling it until it stops warting out or turns amber whichever comes first. This one is about 1/2 the size of the first one but 10x the frost. Guess it helps when it's not all seeded up lol. And then there is the bonsai flower experiment which imo is exceeding hope lol. They are starting to pack on the bud for sure. Today is their Cal/Mag "shot". Totally digging this organic pro mix and
fox farm nutes.
And as far as your mental health is concerned? I had a 15+ year very slow decompression happen. You'll feel like you go through these layers or phases of coming back to "sanity". 1 step at a time. Look back at how nuts you were, how improved you are, and allow what's next to unfold for itself.
It is ironic that the most free Country in the world trains its soldiers to resolve conflict with violence and death. And then when they bring us home, it is to a world where violence and death are punished by confinement and death. In essence we are trained to do 1 thing and expected to ignore muscle memory, spontaneous reaction, and gut instinct because our geo location changed. At the end of my journey I've found I enjoy the tranquility of nature and the peacefulness of being left the fuck alone.