jumpincactus
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Good morning fellow Farmer & friends. I post today with a heavy heart and am calling out for some positive vibes and well wishes. I have been struggling for some time now with life circumstances and could use some positive energy to help me stay hopeful.
I have been estranged from my only daughter for approx 15 years now. She is a meth addict, well let me rephrase that, she will do any drug she can get her hands on. Last fathers day she ended up in Banner Medical from a heroin overdose. She seems to have a propensity for finding the biggest loser in the bunch and always seems to end up in relationships with ex cons and of course active addicts.
The tough part of this whole thing is I know that I cannot force her to do the right thing as I believe that unless she is ready and sick n tired of being sick n tired she wont be receptive to the recovery process. I GET that. We all know the end results of addition with no recovery and its not pretty. She has a beautiful 2.5 year old that is my grand daughter and this whole thing is breaking my heart. CPS has already had a go at my grand baby as a result of my daughters behavior.
So yesterday after talking with her and my ex wife, Alicia stated she is willing to give a 30 day in patient a go. Keep in mind I/we have heard so many promises and half assed attempts to get her $$$$ together and the song remains the same. So I spent better part of the day yesterday on the phone looking for a place that would take her with no insurance as I nor my ex have any. I finally after a long day and a few tears found a place that not only will work with her on the no insurance issue they will also take the grand baby in also. See this was one of the excuses she uses saying that she cant be without Sophia for that long.
Long story short, I just got a text from her and she stated she is willing to give it a go based on having the baby with her during her treatment. I am hopeful initially, however there is a 1-2 week waiting period and no telling if she will have second thoughts later. At this point I just am asking the Creator to look out for her and hopefully she will make it into rehab. I just hope she is ready and is doing this for herself first and foremost. I let her know I support her 110% and will always take an active role in any counseling or treatment plan they come up with. I normally would not air my dirty laundry online but over the years you folks here at the Farm have become like a second family to me and I am looking for nothing more than a show of positive vibes and well wishes as the journey Alicia is about to embark is one of life or death. I believe in power in #'s. So I would love to hear some positive vibes and support from those of you so inclined. Man I hope she survives this. She is in pretty bad shape. Much love and thanks for letting me vent a tad. Peace
I have been estranged from my only daughter for approx 15 years now. She is a meth addict, well let me rephrase that, she will do any drug she can get her hands on. Last fathers day she ended up in Banner Medical from a heroin overdose. She seems to have a propensity for finding the biggest loser in the bunch and always seems to end up in relationships with ex cons and of course active addicts.
The tough part of this whole thing is I know that I cannot force her to do the right thing as I believe that unless she is ready and sick n tired of being sick n tired she wont be receptive to the recovery process. I GET that. We all know the end results of addition with no recovery and its not pretty. She has a beautiful 2.5 year old that is my grand daughter and this whole thing is breaking my heart. CPS has already had a go at my grand baby as a result of my daughters behavior.
So yesterday after talking with her and my ex wife, Alicia stated she is willing to give a 30 day in patient a go. Keep in mind I/we have heard so many promises and half assed attempts to get her $$$$ together and the song remains the same. So I spent better part of the day yesterday on the phone looking for a place that would take her with no insurance as I nor my ex have any. I finally after a long day and a few tears found a place that not only will work with her on the no insurance issue they will also take the grand baby in also. See this was one of the excuses she uses saying that she cant be without Sophia for that long.
Long story short, I just got a text from her and she stated she is willing to give it a go based on having the baby with her during her treatment. I am hopeful initially, however there is a 1-2 week waiting period and no telling if she will have second thoughts later. At this point I just am asking the Creator to look out for her and hopefully she will make it into rehab. I just hope she is ready and is doing this for herself first and foremost. I let her know I support her 110% and will always take an active role in any counseling or treatment plan they come up with. I normally would not air my dirty laundry online but over the years you folks here at the Farm have become like a second family to me and I am looking for nothing more than a show of positive vibes and well wishes as the journey Alicia is about to embark is one of life or death. I believe in power in #'s. So I would love to hear some positive vibes and support from those of you so inclined. Man I hope she survives this. She is in pretty bad shape. Much love and thanks for letting me vent a tad. Peace
