Maybe? Idk I am pretty dumb and have no idea how much sense i am making or can make other than to myself. But I agree what you said feels resonant.
You're certainly not dumb. I know I make perfect sense to me, but that's where I draw the line. I was just sharing an observation, which I have no attachment to, nor do I need to debate or defend, because to me it would be folly. I have gotten to the point where I choose to believe this or that, but can't prove anything about my beliefs - they might not even be "mine", lol. When it comes to intangibles (that's a whole nother can of worms), I see my beliefs as choices, e.g. I believe in aliens and UFOs because that makes my world more interesting to me. I have no proof either way of their existence.
Don't get me wrong. I'm typically onboard with most of the conventional consensus reality stuff, e.g. I don't think the earth is flat and I believe in
flu. It's just that I can go form zero to down the rabbit hole in about three seconds. I had driven myself crazy with things like metaphysics and epistemology at a very early age - many years before I even had heard those words. Even trying to verbalize this short piece, I struggle tremendously, triple guessing myself all along the way. And no, I'm not even high yet, lol. I have been having to do far too much adulting lately...