current season

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thc farmer ain't half bad, either.

airless, even... I'm learning.

 

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i figured out y i can't look at the desert takin over my own spread, this yr... it was something my neighbors and i, tackled, together. i can't look my friends in the eyes. i can't view my acreage, in the eyes, either. very painful to address.

 

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made it to the highway
had to pull over
rip adam no doubt he had a ventilator, long as he wasn't n spain.
what do we call polish jews in America
black slaves
irish slaves
natives
etc.?
and we know what's happening in juarez
out movies show us
refugees
exiles
what do we call Mexicans
latin Americans
south Americans
Spanish descendants
incan royal descendants

say it

fucking say it

if one is ur neighbor

if one lives far away in ur county
our state
our United states

what are we focused on building the 160th minle of

would u rather wipe your ass

get paid

or be a superhero

for a single stranger

i can spare a tarp square

and a fucking roll of toilet paper

can we spare a modicum of compassion

humanity

and if your mother came illegally to save her anchor baby's life

what if this women's name was

mommy

mommy

mommy

what if u hadn't been born in America and your son was your daughter was your wife required a ventilator

now imagine your spanish

i am sooo

fucking ashamed

halsey
you should b sad

random sat radio pulse

as i finished

i

am

so

ashamed

of the color of my skin

now

imagine I'm white

 

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as i say

i am so

moved

walked into a local market so tiny

i
don't bother to remove g's list

i see toilet paper

-sc
what's the tp limit

-gal from Wisconsin
i know
she told md a story, once
rhinelander beer... etc... cheese head...

-sc
got an intercom

NO

yell, then

i will buy two packs
for EVERYONE in the store...
right fucking now
if
they give the second
to a neighbor

-gal
I'm sorry
our register won't permit it

got the guy next in line...
two big Kleenex cases... 2 tp bags and the rest of the isopropyl i walked in with, the store didn't need, but one cannot buy, still.

-dood
well, that's my entire purchase

-sc
pay it forward

-dood
i will
blablabla

I'm sorry

someone told me a story this morning

charged my life

on my life

 

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saw a usc Trojan, helmet sticker, on a car door

getting off on rte 66; all across America...
andy... DIVINE

rather than a sticker, for Christians which reads, "NOTW"/not of this world... finding it more befitting of the old testament and talmud. i thought they preach jezuz, is of this world, my bad.

and another which reads, "respect existence, or expect resistance", which to me, subjectively translates to, "if i don't get mine..."...

and thinking of my experience within the market I'm going to

i got tired of pulling over, enroute...

I'd prefer a sticker which reads, "I'VE HAD IT, ALREADY", which to me, translates to

i am not afraid to help a stranger, regardless of situation
you cannot hurt me

more than I've already hurt my neighbors I've yet to meet
a handshake, looking eye to eye

saying

you can trust me

you can put your faith

i will give you 100%

or die trying

honestly, i dunno how much more disingenuousness i can take

I've had it, already

 

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i just met a native from las cruces. i know las cruces, vaguely. and i have a native friend, homeless, of royal blood.

i don't have cash on me

told him i wish i had

asked what he needed

"i could use a clean shirt"

man... i so often roll with an extra layer, short sleeve to jacket.

i name dropped for street cred

he doesn't know my friend, ryan Sullivan

he listened to a story of an apology to his people

y'all know i like my decades broke in, carhartts and y'all know i tend to roll with coats for friends


i don't need a 5x, anymore

he said it was too big

-sc
and when it rains
it will cover his knees, right

so he takes it and 2 rolls of tp

as i write this, he returns... handily my $150ish, carhartt back, saying HE'S sorry...

his people, rightfully, own the pool i swim in.

my shirt is clean...
I'm wearing a 1x, a LIL tight

mine was wicking material

gonna b a hot one in kingman, today

i will wear his filthy souvenir, proudly

g, no doubt, will wash it, mas tarde

and in a couple weeks

i won't have to buy a new shirt

and can wear it, with pride

i made a new friend and he shook my hand with a firm grip, twice

black of hair

brown eyes

i forget his name

redskin, will do

it's fitting

I'm cheap

hate buying clothes

could've sold it

could've pawned it

could've traded it for drugs

could've

may have saved my life

i get my shirts from Walmart

they're having an outbreak

 

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you four

changed my life

forever

 

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shit

can't shop again

shirt may have flu

oh well

I'll live

worth it

a homeless man

my people fucking slaughtered

just gave me the shirt off his back

isn't that something

isn't he something

my shirt

could've killed em

for all he knows

a homeless man

helped and trusted

a stranger

 

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changed my life

wolverine

changed

my perspective

 

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shower

change of clothes

-sc
sorry
use a glove, when u wash my shirt

don't ask me

u don't want to know

GOT TP!

-g
ok

 

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funny thing is

i bet he had to ask a stranger

for a lil sparechange

he looked like EVERYONE else

exiting the store

whom 96%, ignore me

i stopped and addressed him

as to whether they had any tp

his response, asking for nothing

was

-redskin
I'm sorry
i wouldn't know
I'm homeless

(smart enough to know he doesn't need it)

and a lil sparechange

is exactly what he got

 

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i did not see what I'd hoped for

as a synonym, for SPARE

to me

at this moment

it means

to afford

hence

can human nature

afford to change

i am transferred

i am metamorphosed

i

am

sparechange

today

isn't the desert beautiful

isn't our planet

our homes

our people

our hearts

our heavens

aren't they beautiful

 

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show us your hearts

show us your heavens

tell us a story

your stories

 

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wolfy

you

inspire

we

 

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investors
remember Katrina
remember Fleetwood
i know Fleetwood
seen central park, recently
tent med units
911 FEMA, was dialed...
pad ur lost retirements
u know i feel a crash, when banks, publicly traded,
will no longer b able to hyde
nobody ponied up, this month
atms in Florida, already limited...
got an rv for sale
fuel low
rv's get more... in demand
Fleetwood, is not geard to retool.
i seen their cali plant. too small
FEMA will need ur trailer/rv
and since the gvt is payin
that's a $500, roofing hammer
check their share history
get ur RETIREMENT back...
you're welcome ;D

 

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even contractors... bidding hospitals, etc
"not in my backyard/quarantines",
will need places to sleep, while building in outlying areas...
call me crazy
round pegs...
cyclical...

 

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i believe MINI is a ticker symbol, for a similar, company...

 

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nobody has caught on

get ur RETIREMENT back

make ur millions
money is cheap...
check options... cheaper...

 

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it's expensive, but note how recently, it was double