tyred of
native dreams
changing lives
dreams of home
the indian in the cupboard
on my dreams
swirled with
good years
i was dreaming of the ryan's experience
i don't go in for hooga booga
but there's no denying what i felt
thought i saw
things i cannot discuss
per the cupboard
i was dreaming
of what i would write
about which dream
infinity is
dreams within dreams within a dream
first i got tired
awoke in my dream
in my dreams
i dreamt about
i met a man
i bet if i go through my house
paperwork
i will find an estimate
for repairing an inspectors
dreams of money
and larry the roofer's name
will be on one of two estimates
i met a third man
he spoke poorly of the first
contractor handyman
when one must down another
to make their work
look better
in a new land
whom do you trust
in the land of all things that kill
one seals up heart and hearth
closes the door to life faith and
trust
i met a dream
of lost possibilities and mentally
mapped connections
i met a man
last august
my life began behaving
like leaky roofs and
gaping holes
this man proved himself
he only asked 10%
of a sweaty wadd of kash
he had seen me
losing my grasp on
would you care for a drink
does one require a beverage
swimming in a swirling pool
or are our lives not made to digest
livers of salt water
i met a man
life is but a dream
clue
my dream has already started
my life has already changed
in a hospital yesterday
minimal alterations
perhaps i have been
lookin for daddys
perhaps i was with one
in jimmy
perhaps i got to know him
working and playing
with a roofer
and he's not really a roofer
he's a heart contractor
guardian
and my good friend
my royal family
said to me
my dream would change my life
it's a 74 year old
and 40 sum
year
old dream
he's not wrong
however all three
dreams of home
already had
and as i waited
with my arm on a gurnee
as one might address a high bar
and watched another o2 sensor
while playing in the sand
tic toc tic toc
i hate reruns
everything went fine
but as i felt
how i felt
i was unable to look at my friend
staring off
in between 80 alarms
daydreaming of another man
under a roofer's roof
another man i met
another neighbor father and friend
a lifetime of searching for
hopefully a good man
so i could grow to love them
and sit next to them
when their o2 sensors
fail
it's upsetting to watch
a grain of sand
slip away to the other side
tic talk
tic toc
a life with without fathers
a neighbor and
father of a murdered child
in a fathered life
good people
in a few good men
beginning with Ziggy
home is where the heart is
ending with
dreams of home
in a little town
"that's my dream of
heaven"