my new fav song
fuck
the bullshit of the day
it's Friday
if i were a workin man
i would b fucking pleased as punch
as i am a cat of leisure
not so much
i forget
oh right
went to get the written lab notes
for oil
buried
in current season thread
man
i
that's not even me
i didn't realize
i arrived at the farm
so fucked up
i saw vocabulary i don't even use
I'm so disappointed
and sorry, too, fellas
god
i can't believe the names that rode that thread to the end
my condolences
u can never get that life back
anyway
there was
oh
yeah
so i couldn't read my own history, beyond pg 3ish
went to rewrite it n email it to ms sue
2 fucking ours man
that kinda focus
fucking email crashed
no draft
nada
zip
fucking goose egg
i can even remember the last time i COULD focus for two hrs
that's probably a lie
I'm sure i targeted my ash off
omg
lost!
livid
pist
NAPALM
I'm calmer, an hr later but
if i could scream URGH
and not upset the national state of the universe
i
w
o
od!
so pist
nothing to prove... i worked this hard for u
with nothing, but hope
how the...
I'm trying to prove myself of value to this woman and i can't focus on a thought longer than a fart without fucking up!!!!
argh!!!!
so disappointed
it could literally take me two months
to pull my shit together, long enough to do that, AGAIN!
the fucking pot was clean, topicals were done... instructions for edibles...
vanished
just fucking gone!
worse
there's been changes, since i put that down so my research wouldn't b scattered to the 4 winds
lord am i pist
p
i
s
t
!
