im a cripple dude.. all the shit i use to love to do i can not physically do.. thanks for the positive vibes.. im just gonna be a fucking bitch today im afraid.. such is life.. this leg is being quite a bitch today.. withdrawals, leg pain, chemical imbalance.. iv not killed anyone yet so i guess i deserve a break1
now i know why im a loaner, hah.. just love to torcher my self.. actually i never was a loaner till the pills.. but now after 15 years. even when im getting clean from the opiates.. i just do not give a shit about public, or even participating. so yeah.. we see what happens man.
i never abused my pain meds that my biggest issue.. i did what i was told.. and lookw hat it did to my b rain/body.. i mean wtf. but i digress.. life goes fucking on.
and the weed is only thing that has help.. so cant help butg focus on wanting more. but i know that aint happenig today. so i just wonder why should i have to deal with pain for a few days assuming not longer because i have no herb.. i was a fool to get off the pills i think at this point.. but such is life.
chrfis.
chris.
my gut is feeling a little better today.. probably gonna mix some rum and coke in a bit.. fuck my diet..