Damn bro everything was looking great...Im so sorry to hear and see this but as everyone said it happens to all of us and not much can be done but gaining some more knowledge for your next run...I have had some bad shit happen to me and im exactly like you very very hard on myself (thanks god I got some good buddies to calm me down) and many grows I have said im retiring but never ever do.....it's kinda like when your face down in the toilet puking and your saying im never drinking again but then next weekend your buying everyone shots at the bar lol........the grow was looking awesome bro so chalk this one up to shit log and go easy on the nutirients next run and im sure you will pull some fire.....looking forward to seeing another thread from you!!!!